ME ME ME – It’s all about ME.
The purpose of my being in one place this winter is ME. Me me me me me. I am taking time to be completely self centered. Okay, well not completely. I still want to make a website, do some writing and be a good person doing good things for others when I can. But if push comes to shove, I will drop all of that, and look after myself. Above all, for the next 2 months, I am my #1 priority. Yeah!
So what does that mean? Writing long winded self centred blog posts? Er… maybe… I’ll try hard not to do that. (Email me if it is painful – actually – really – please do. Anytime. Good or bad. Feedback is great. email@example.com. )
Really, it means taking space, taking time, having my own ‘home’ and simply being more grounded, and COMPLETELY real. Helpful with this is being in nature and limiting the amount of information coming at me via internet, media, people, etc. Yes, I am hermit-izing myself in a way that is not crazy. (really!)
I have no one to answer to. I have nowhere I have to be, and nothing to plan. I am responsible for keeping my end of the work trade bargain, but that’s it. And even then, if I don’t like it, I can leave. I am spending my time more consciousliy without watching movies or using the internet to fill in the gaps. I am living simply, quietly, independently, and using what is around to get/make what I need.
So far, almost two weeks in – I am so happy to have my own space. I am slowly, slowly unwinding and ‘arriving’. I had no idea how much I really needed this, and I am so grateful to 1) Know myself enough to realize what I need; 2) Actually give myself what I need. 3) Have the balls to make the opportunity to do so.